When I was finally diagnosed with endometriosis in 2011, via laparoscopic surgery, I made a decision to follow more of a holistic way of managing it.
I’d come off the pill after a decade, since I was tired of the added hormones, and mental impacts that came from that. I knew that I didn’t want to go back down that path.
Instead, I stepped into the world of holistic healing and made many changes along the way.
Many changes along the way…
I changed my diet and what I put in and on my body. I started to focus on nourishing myself and removing inflammatory factors.
I took handfuls of supplements, herbs, and got good at drinking things that were green. Haha.
I went through a couple of years of intense detoxing of my liver and gallbladder, which inspired the creation of this blog (I no longer recommend doing those intense cleanses!)
And I made big lifestyle changes to help manage stress.
I changed jobs and moved away from a stressful living environment into one with a super healing outside space, surrounded by trees, and chirping birds.
Lingering Frustration & Pain…
Yet despite all the changes along the way, I couldn’t shake the horrible pain with my periods. I also continued to struggle with infertility. I’d been pregnant a few times, but the new life didn’t stick.
This brought up feelings of frustration. It felt like I was doing everything “right”, yet I still struggled.
As I worked through my training at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition (IIN) in 2013, I started practicing coaching and getting coached by other members in the program.
It was with these interactions with other budding IIN health coaches that chakras and energy flow first entered into my vocabulary.
I hadn’t considered the role of energy before.
I’d spent years addressing the physical part of my being, but had barely touched on my energetic “body” or greater spiritual part of my Self.
The conversations I had with other coaches made me start to consider that additional blocks could be present.
Addressing Deeper Blockages…
With hope that I could find and address these internal blocks, I opened up for deeper exploration through free-flow writing, which serves as a direct gateway to that divine, creative, part of my Self. It taps into that subconscious well of information that’s right there, under the surface.
I started with a question that stirred within my solar plexus: What am I worth? What am I worth as a woman with endometriosis? As a woman who hasn’t been able to bear a child?
When I first sat down with pen and paper in hand, I had little idea of the magic that would follow, fueled by intention, and curiosity.
Through free-flow writing inner truths were revealed and I started to piece together a greater understanding of deeper fears and blocks that were present.
There’s more than meets the eye.
Guided by intention to find freedom from these blocks, I ended up connecting with amazing, inspiring women, and healers that changed my life.
The story that followed was full of magical synchronicity and greater truths that left me with a stronger understanding of myself and this dis-ease that has taken shape within me.
I started to “see” that there’s more than meets the eye when it comes to healing.
There are spiritual and emotional components that underlie this experience with endometriosis, and tapping into that, and releasing it, allows space for energy to flow more freely, and for pain to finally leave.
On the positive side?
I’m blessed to have captured the story along the way, and with sheer vulnerability, I’m offering the words of my soul out to the world, in hopes that it helps shed some light on the importance of addressing deeper emotional and spiritual components in your experience with endo.
Also, in celebration of this journey and to share the wisdom of the women that changed my life, I’m featuring them on the Peace with Endo Podcast over the next few weeks.
Starting with Bethan Louise, a hypnotherapist and life coach who helped me get to the root cause of core subconscious beliefs underlying my experience with endo and infertility.